These days I’m really tired, day by day I’m learning better how to manage my time and all the things that I do.
In this period I have my focus shifted in these projects.
- Creating content
- youtube
- x
- blog
- Building projects:
- personal website
- new project
school and university
Furthermore to all of this, I must add the priority that I have now, that is the school.
Nothing can work if I’m not going well at school, this is the last year of high school and I would like to overperform compared to other years.
After high school, I’m going to go to university.
In these last months, I realized what I like and what I’m good at.
Before I thought university to be useless, I thought that if I had gone to the university it would have meant to have failed on all the other projects.
Is hard to say but is what I thought honestly.
Probably because of all the toxic information that social network is spreading around.
Instead, I was wrong, but not completely.
What I think is that what I thought had a ground of meaning.
Today university is not as useful as 20 years ago, today you have other choices to grow and scale.
Don’t mention that if you want to learn something, you have free access pretty on everything now, there is nothing that you can’t learn.
For that, I thought why should I go to the university? Only for a peace of paper?
Today the “paper” of the university has lost power, now is more important the skills that you have than the title that you have got.
This is a generalization, is not always like this and I admit that if you have a degree from Harvard you have pretty much all the doors opened.
Apart from that what made me change my mind?
The experience.
The chance of networking that you have at the university is a rare occasion to meet all the most interesting people that have your same passion for something.
The university is the best place to meet some interesting people.
And the academic experience is something that happens only one time in your life.
University is a place of high-quality information, people and stimulus, if you add this parameters to creativity and passion, you obtain something that is not replicable.
No matter what the university is, I want to go.
If you know a bit about me probably you know what I like, just read a random one of my articles and you probably guess that I like creating things, thinking, writing and tech.
I want to do engineering informatics.
But I don’t feel ready for it, I feel to have a huge gap of knowledge due to the school that I’ve done.
I’ve done and technical institute of informatics, but since the majority of the hours we have done informatics subjects, I feel completely ignorant in physics chemistry and biology.
And I discovered that I like also studying these subjects.
So I decided to start studying them on my own.
Physical and emotional well-being
How do I feel?
As I said I’m tired the majority of times.
I’m dealing a lot with stress these days, I found stress to be a huge factor in my mental and physical health, so I started spending more time studying it trying to lower my levels of it.
I created a pretty good pool of knowledge about nutrition, habits, stress, sleep etc.
One day I’m going to create an article with all the things that I’ve learned.
Mentally I’m pretty well, I’m more motivated to do things and happy in general, I’m about to find the right equilibrium between all I do, and I learned to blame myself less when I give myself some rest.
With the new diet that I’m doing, I’m improving a lot my shape and this makes me proud.
Lessons and principles
- Be transparent and honest.
I spend too much time thinking about what others could think.
Also if I’m improved is still something that takes a lot away from me, sometimes I feel completely stuck and I don’t feel any more in control of myself.
It seems like if people do two works, one is what they are supposed to do, and the second is trying to manage what other people think.
And I want to focus only on one work, regardless what others think.
There is a big difference between being good at something and showing others that you are good at something.
Also if you are the best, you must be able to show it or you are not.
The key is knowing how to manage stress.
Meditating and putting yourself out, there are no shortcuts to it.
You have to be stressed to start to avoid it.
Stress is good for your body, but in some scenarios, you don’t want to be stressed and I have to learn how to shut down the stress, everyone has this button, we have only to find it.
What I learned
I’ve improved much in managing my time, I’ve learned how to split all the activities that I want to do, and now I’m a happier and healthier person.
I found the boundaries between work, school and relationships.
And most important I stopped blaming myself for everything.
This month was one of the first months in my life where I felt balanced, I know where I’m going, I know what I like and I know what I’m good at.
I have everything that I need!
It’s incredible thinking about all the things that I’ve been through but maybe I made it!
I see the direction now, probably I knew that was the right choice before when I was in the UK, but it was only a feeling.
If I hadn’t gone abroad I don’t know where I could be now, which could have been my priorities now.
I see myself as a better person.
And I’m proud of it.