I would like to use this article to do a recap about my january.
I’m using this little space to share my day and my sensation as an exchange student.
This because I like seeing my improvements.
January was a really mindfull month, I feel like I’ve growth much this month.
Was a month of satisfactions and disappointments, difficult under all the aspect but surely one of the most productive month of my life.
In this month I didn’t work much on my project or hobbies, instead I worked more on myself.
The time passed quickly, and is incredible for me thinking that 25 days ago I was departing from Italy.
Already reading my first article of this category, it makes me a strange feeling, my biggest fear was not being able to take such a big step without any experience, but I was wrong, and now it’s normal for me doing things that only one month ago I was scaried to do.
However this is not the end, the journey has just begun, and I will never stop to do what I love and face up my fears.
Also my level of english is surely improved, I’m still far away from a native english of course, but the most important thing is being better than yesterday.
Looking all I did in this month make me crazy, I saw a lot of beautifull places, and I’ve always challenged myself.
Between all the skill and the experience that I did, I think that the most usefull “skill” I learned is being alone.
When I was arrived the easiest thing to do was staying with people you met in the travel, who know the same lenguage, it would have been simple, but this is not what I did.
I was with the others italians only the first few days, after that I decided to change, I understood that I needed to challenge myself.
It was difficult, in the beginning, because even myself didn’t want to accept to be alone, I felt different, I felt wrong to be alone.
The others Italians were all togheter, they went out togheter after school, eating togheter, and for my choice I have always been a stranger for them.
So I had a lot of time to think.
When you are alone, in a deep loneliness, you start to talk with yourself, you start to listen yout thinking start make questions.
- Why I’m thinking that?
- What I really want from this?
- Why I’m doing that?
So I started doing a lot of questions, and I went into a kind of meditation when I couldn’t don’t listen myself.
This is how I learned to depend only on myself.
So as I said, this was a month where I didn’t work much on my project or my shape but more on myself.
So what I would like from the next month?
What I would like next month
As the beginning I’d like to use more time to develop my hobbies and my projects, first of all write more in this blog and bring more quality on my posts.
I would like to focus more on the shape and the diet, because this month I don’t feel like I gave all myself.
And I would like to work more on my habits.
As I wrote on one of the previous articles, I started track all my finance, I would like to continue doing it, and maybe in the future, I will hang out with an article about it.
For the English to be onest I don’t have many requests, I would like to keep doing what I did this month, travelling a lot, speaking with different people and practice my english, maybe I would like to write more in english and read more in english.
Yeah, this is all, I hope for a meaningful month full of experiences.
As all the others posts of this category, this is what I learned today:
the meaning of life is a strange thing, it’s like when you lose your phone, you look everywhere for it, but then you realize it’s in your pocket